Yes. This is from a children’s book. As I sat on this couch (heavenly right?)
and read this book to the babies the other night,
I started to think: The lessons we learn as little girls really are the same, simple lessons we carry with us. I know it is a simple prayer from a simple little book, but it really touched my heart. I don’t know why, but I have been in a funk recently. Nothing exactly particular that is bothering me, just overwhelming feelings of not being the girl that God wants me to be, and the girl that I want to be. I got into a huge fight with my sister last week over something silly, and ended up really upsetting her. My sisters are the MOST important things to me, and I love them more than anything. My baby girls (19 and 23! ha) look up to me, and I have a responsibility as a big sister to be a positive influence, and lead them by example.
Sometimes I forget just how important this is. Yes my sissies are my friends, but they are also younger than me, and they look up to what I am doing. I have struggled with that recently. I so want to be the big sissy to them that I know I am, I just had a moment of weakness and treated them as equals-as my peers, when I need to remember that there is a time and place for that, but my most important role, is to be their big sister, and their role model. I pray that God will continue to guide me, and help me to be the wonderful girl that I know I am, a better Christian, a better big sister, a better friend, a better daughter, a better everything.